This is how you...

This is how you love; this is how you yell; this is how you hit; this is how you fight. This is how you cook; this is what I like and I don’t care what you like; this is called leftovers. This is called having no money and this is how it will work; this is not enough food; this is not enough money for new shoes; this is me trying. This is not enough time for me to parent you; this is I’M WORKING; this is me getting up from my desk to teach you how ride a bike; this is the moment where your dad pulls up because it’s his time for visitation; this is fake. This is what you wear when you get a job. This is how you treat your friends. This is how you shmooze. This is how you shut out the world; this is blasting music in the house and the car and any chance I get. This is a hug because you are sick; this is real. This is lying; this is lying to yourself. This is home; that’s not home. This is happy; this is hate; this is anger; this is self-loathing; this is pain. This is how you love.